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It all sounded like a joke when he said, I will keep Nwaku under my custody until she gives birth to a female child that will replace mine.  Mum, I never thought uncle Amadi was serious. “Who is your uncle, how can you call that beast your uncle”? Mummy, please do something, I cannot give birth now. And marriage will be horrible, Nwaku said, crying very sorrowfully.  

         My dear, it will not happen. I will not allow it since we have lawyers. I will seek justice for you, he will not succeed. Please stop crying; it also makes me cry seeing you like this. What else should I do mum? Tell me what else I should do if not to cry and know if it’s my tears that will make God, come to my aid.

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       One sunny day, Nwaku had gone to her Uncle’s house and carried the baby for a stroll outside. She was so used to the baby, that at every sight of her, the baby will always leap for joy. Laughing and smiling at the same time; even though he doesn’t have any teeth. A very chubby baby that doesn’t like just anyone carrying him. That day she was sitting outside on the bench that was built for people to hang out on when the baby started his usual tricks of moving around restlessly. Each time he does that, Nwaku already knows that he wants to start playing with her. And she will either throw him up or shake him very roughly. He loves the throwing up part the most. Just when she threw him up, came that voice.

        “The baby looks very chubby and friendly”.

         With the baby still up and her two hands still hanging in the air awaiting the baby to land safely to them.  And the baby still hanging in the air, Nwaku turned to respond to her friend that was complimenting her uncle’s three months old baby. Without giving the baby much attention, as he was already coming down with fast speed; because of how high Nwaku had thrown him. She didn’t turn in time to catch him back in her hands safely. Boom! That was the sound she heard when the baby that weighs about 8kg, fell to the ground. She was so sure the baby was dead. Until she rushed and moved very close to his nostril and found out that he was still breathing slowly.

         Her friend Nnanna had already started shouting at the top of his voice. She was so confused, coupled with the shouts from her friend she got more confused on what next step to take.

         Not until the baby’s mother came running towards them that she decided to move the baby a little bit. But with the shouts from the mother saying “if you touch him again, the gods will strike your entire generation”. she left the baby lying down there. She stood up, went, and stood by the corner.

           The mother had already known what had happened to the baby; because Nnanna was explaining everything while he was shouting on top of his voice.

          It wasn’t just the mother that came, the neighbors too and some of the passersby rushed to the scene. Some holding their hands on their heads and cursing Nwaku saying “may the gods never allow her experience childbirth” some were saying “she was a very wicked child and so shouldn’t hear the cry of her own baby”. Others said, “they are very sure that her mother was the brain behind this act of wickedness”.

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          The next few hours would leave Nwaku and her mother in a very confused state. They weren’t allowed to go to the hospital with the child, his mother, and the good Samaritan that brought the car that was used in taking the baby to the hospital. They were so confused that they didn’t know if they should cry at that moment. They were just pacing up and down inside the small room that barely had enough furniture to house two people, a woman of 28 years and a girl of 15 years old.

           They stayed up late. Not until 12am, that they heard the sound of a parking car inside the compound. They already knew it was their uncle that had parked his Volvo white 2005 model car, which makes sound as if the engine had been filled with excess water and engine oil, that it could not carry. And the heavy smoke that comes out from the exhaust pipe, that kind of smoke that when you see, you will think the house nearby is already burning beyond recovery.

         They expected him to say something to them but instead, the garrulous uncle didn’t say a word. They became more terrified because they thought the baby didn’t survive it. Nwaku started crying. Wishing death to come that night. Her mother was consoling her and was also crying too.  

          It was the next morning that he came and made the announcement, he had always wanted to make; since, he noticed how Nwaku’s body had fully developed like that of a fully grown woman even though she was just 15. The way her hips always swung side by side whenever she walked past by his doorpost. And the way her breast that was brighter than the rest of her body would always show a little bit because of the extra-large shirt she usually wears, that always shifts down whenever she bends to greet him every morning.

             “Whether you like it or not I must get married to her and she must give me a son,” Amadi said and stumbled out of the house. The wife couldn’t believe her ears.

“Why would he want to marry a small girl who isn’t yet an adult; even though our son is still alive”? The wife was pondering this question since her husband made his intention known.

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           He had been with us since I was six years old. He came to live with us in our home. My parents had thought it wise to bring someone from the same village with us. So, when he came, they said I should be calling him brother Amadi that was a sign of respect in our tribe. I was that kind of taciturn child. I don’t keep friends. It was always school, work, church, and home to me and my parents.

          Eight years into staying with us, my parents had a ghastly accident and immediately kicked the bucket. I was left with him. I haven’t been to the village, so I didn’t know any relatives. Brother Amadi was the only one left for me in this world. I started staying with him in our house. We were staying well until I clocked 15. It was as if they released a beast in him. He started coming to my room every night. Each time he comes he would always force himself on me. He continued doing that to me every day until I became pregnant.

           He didn’t even know that I was pregnant until I was four months gone. He stopped talking to me. Every morning he would keep money on the iron curved table that was kept at the center of the living room and leave, and not come home until midnight. I was so naïve. And he didn’t even make things easy for me. There were times I considered suicide but you kept me going. Each time that suicide thought comes up in my mind, you would kick me so hard and I will forget it and concentrate on the pain the kick was giving me. This continued until I finally gave birth to you.

       Mum. “I can’t believe you went through all these”, said Nwaku. When her mother finished narrating her life’s journey.

       “Why would he do that to you”? she asked with tears already gushing down her cheek. She just couldn’t imagine how her mother could still be this strong even after suffering from such terrible pains and trauma.

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         Even though Mama Nwaku had said she won’t allow what happened to her, happen to her daughter. She honestly didn’t know how to go about it.  She was so worried that she couldn’t sleep that night. She watched her daughter sleep quietly while holding her body very tightly. She thought of facing brother Amadi face and to face and pleading with him, but she quickly dismissed the thought. Since he married his wife; he has been begging to sleep with her even if it’s once but she had bluntly refused him on many occasions.

        the morning broke into a very different atmosphere. The compound that used to be filled with the joyful and melodious voice of Nwaku’s singing every morning, was rather filled with the faces of sadness. Nature seemed to be aware of what was happening, because even the birds weren’t singing that morning. The one that tried perching on the big mango tree near Nwaku’s bedroom was singing as though a tiny bone was stuck in between its throat. 

              It was not until afternoon that different voices were being heard in Uncle Amadi’s compound. They hesitated at first from going to know what was happening. But after a while, both mama Nwaku and her daughter couldn’t wait again, because their hearts were filled with sadness, anger and lots of questions. Mama Nwaku didn’t even change from the red wrapper that she was tying very closely to her bosom and the light black blouse she was wearing; the one she had bought during two Christmas ago.

      “It will be over my dead body that I will allow you to marry that child” Uncle Amadi’s wife was saying and arranging her wrapper that was falling off her waist, to show the light silk long brown skirt that served as her underwear. She kept on repeating those words while trying to seat on a chair that was kept just Infront of the doorpost; Uncle Amadi’s favorite position. Her parents and two neighbors were already there when mama Nwaku and her daughter arrived. They still hadn’t heard from uncle Amadi, because he was just seated and refused to say a word to anyone.

          Mama Nwaku and her daughter’s arrival seemed to be the worst decision they made that day. Because immediately they arrived, everyone turned and started abusing them. Even Uncle Amadi’s wife that was shouting at her husband, turned and started cursing them too.  They didn’t even give them any chance of greeting or saying a word. Mama Nwaku just stood there, listening and looking at them. When they didn’t see any reaction from her, they all kept quiet at the same time.

        “How is he doing now”? She asked, referring to no one in particular. Uncle Amadi’s wife turned and said “the doctors said he will be discharged in two weeks’ time; he is responding to treatment.”

      Deep down mama Nwaku’s heart, she wished she could snuff the life out of uncle Amadi. “Why then does he want to get married to my daughter and also impregnate her at this age, when his son isn’t dead”? Part of her was wishing evil while the other part was grateful that the baby was alive and healthy.

          “I will marry your daughter, with or without your consent” that was the only thing uncle Amadi said before he stormed out of the compound.

      Tears were rushing down Nwaku’s eyes like that of a waterfall. She refused to be consoled by her mother, she just ran out and went inside her own room and locked the door. Everyone was just staring at them and didn’t say a word. Mama Nwaku left almost immediately too. She went to the big mango tree near her own room, sat down under the tree, and started crying profusely. She was wondering why her dead parents weren’t doing anything to help her. she had heard so many stories of the dead, helping the living. She used to believe that proverb in her tribe that says “a cow that doesn’t have a tail, the gods helps in chasing away the flies that perches on its body”. But now, she doesn’t believe it anymore.

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      I was seven when mama Nwaku’s grandfather invited me to come and stay with them. My parents had just died of a rare disease. They couldn’t treat themselves because they had no money. When I first came, I didn’t like the way mama Nwaku’s father would look at me each time I pulled my clothes off in front of him. He would smile in a very wicked manner and hit my butt. I reported this to his father but he didn’t do anything because he didn’t believe me. I didn’t know what to do, because he was much older and stronger than I was.

       From hitting my butt, he progressed to coming to my room at night. He would kiss me till I no longer had any breath in me, with his mouth that smelled like a seed in our tribe called ‘ogiri’. Shouting was of no use because his father’s room was very far from mine and he was a very deep sleeper. After kissing me to his satisfaction, he would force his penis into my anus.

      “What could a boy of seven years do to a man of 20 years old, whose parent was housing, feeding, and catering for his well-being”?

        I was very slim and tall. With my dark and very soft skin. My face looked so handsome and innocent, that a mere look at it, you will think that I can’t hurt a fly.

      ‘His presence every night in my room, became a norm’.

      I prayed for death to come and take me away but it didn’t come. I suffered this until I became used to him. When his father died, he left to manage his business in the city and left me and the other servants; with me as the head, to manage the business in the village. I was happy that at least I could sleep well and not feel, smell or hear him.

        He used to come and visit us and whenever he comes around, he would always force himself on me even though he was already married at that time. “He calls me his enjoyment baby”. He continued coming to the village until he decided to sell the company because it wasn’t bringing forth much profit again. That was when he asked me to come over and stay with him and his family in the city.

       When I came to the city, he taught me how to run his business. At day he would teach me his business and at some nights he will come and make love to me. I feared that I would turn out to be gay but to my surprise, I started craving to have a woman each time I see one pass by. This continued until one night when I learned he will be traveling to another city for a business meeting. I went to his car and disconnected some wires. I only wanted him to get injured and not die. But unfortunately, the wife went with him and they had a ghastly accident and died.

      That was when I decided to carry out my revenge on his whole generation. ‘Hope you see the reason why I need to marry or impregnate Nwaku’? uncle Amadi said to his son; that was lying on a bed in the children’s ward.

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      Two weeks later, the baby was discharged. On their way home, the car somersaulted three times and fell into a river. Uncle Amadi and his wife were lucky because some men who were close to the river came and rescued them. The wife and the baby didn’t sustain much injury. But uncle Amadi’s legs were completely damaged. The doctor said that he was even lucky to have survived. And he will need about five months to recover and when he does recover, he will be aided with a wheelchair.

      When the news got to mama Nwaku and her daughter, they couldn’t contain their joy. They were very happy. Mostly grateful that the mother and baby are alive and healthy.       

  “It can only be the work of the gods” mama Nwaku said, hugging her daughter and crying joyfully.

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THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO KNOW ABOUT LIFE.

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  Have you ever thought that a mistake or failure might have been your fault before? …………….. Your answer. (you can also comment down below)                      

Most times, we end up blaming a lot of things, for our mistakes and failures while we are the cause of whatever happens to us. I have learned that;

“In every mistake we make, there is an atom of our fault in it, even if we weren’t the people that started it”.

            So many times, I have heard people blame God for their failures and mistakes, and some blame their friends, their families, their countries. Some blame social media and some blame their phones or even laptops or any gadgets they are making use of. While we are the cause of our problems. Some even blame their village people for the death of someone or even for their sickness.

I have heard people put blames on so many things that are also irrelevant. Some even put the blame on nature, saying

“the time ran very fast today, so I wasn’t able to complete the task for today”. Whereas they don’t have what is called ‘Time Management skill’.

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But that doesn’t mean that some of these things can’t be the reason or the cause of our mistakes and failures but knowing that we also have to take part in the blame, will make us understand comprehensively.

           Understanding that every mistake we make have some atom of our fault in it, will help you think less of that mistake. Instead it will make you think of how to correct it or solve the problem.

           I have a friend whose body stature was very beautiful if you ask me, but she wasn’t satisfied. So, she decided to go for plastic surgery to enlarge her butt and boos (BBL). After the surgery, she began having complications, after some months of treatment without any good result, she kicked the bucket. Money wasted, and gone. My beautiful friend also gone. Pain and sorrow filled all our hearts.

           On her burial day, I heard one of her friends saying that “it was the fault of her boyfriend and what she saw trending on IG (Instagram), She wanted to belong”.

These words got to me “She wanted to belong”. She wanted her boyfriend to love her more, and not to cheat on her so she decided to enlarge her body. She also wanted to be like her friends and other people she sees on Instagram, so she decided to enlarge the parts of her body that she wasn’t satisfied with the way her creator made her.

         Am very sure a large percentage of people reading this will blame the social media and also her boyfriend for her death, although they might have their own blame but she also has an atom of blame for her own death.

       Her boyfriend and social media showed her what they felt, and what they would prefer but she on her own side because of lack of ‘Self Esteem or what I call Self Love’, she went ahead to please them, forgetting about her body.

        Conclusion:

Self-love and self-esteem is something everyone should have and something I will advise the parents to start teaching their children from infancy, it should be part of parenting lessons.

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‘Men, women, boys, girls, young and even old people should have self-love and self-esteem’.

         So many people blame social media, for the bad influences they make on people, many of us are quick to put all the blames on social media. Forgetting that social media can also be good and bad it’s just left for us to make our own decision of the one to choose. The one we want social media to influence us with ‘the good or the bad’.

A lot of things on social media today are fake, even a lot of people posting things on social media too are fake. We shouldn’t allow the things we see, to deceive us.

Try your best to have self-esteem and self-love, create it and hold onto it. Always tell yourself you are beautiful. Have positive mindset about yourself. Don’t give listening ears to all that people say about you. Appreciate yourself the way you are. Mind the things you use on yourself. And also, the words you speak to your head, always speak good things to your brain. Our unconscious state reads a lot that we are not aware of to our minds, so be mindful of what you say and the advice you accept from people.

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        So, for me, the most important thing to know about life is what I call self-love, because once you love yourself, you already know how to appreciate yourself, how to choose the advice that people give you, you won’t be easily influence  badly by the actions, words and what you see about people. Learn to love yourself because this is the ultimate.

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I THINK AM A RACIST (A poem)

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Hey mum!

Am scared I might be a racist.

I look through social media and search only my color

I don’t like other colors, even though they are good.

I swipe and hiss each time I see them.

I always shift and make it obvious

I distant from them; because I think they smell.

 I feel am drifting away from what you taught me.

 

Hey mum!

Am afraid I am a racist.

I condemn every acts of other colors.

I say to their faces, they are unworthy.

I know it’s harsh, and you don’t like it.

But. Mum! I’m a racist.  

I don’t see myself changing.

Unless I, Relearn. Reorient. And Reform.  

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STARTING A BLOG

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I finally started blogging!!!!! I now actually have a blog site where I can post all my writings, experiences, and those of my friends who want me to post theirs as well. I now have a platform where I can tell stories and people will read it. I couldn’t be prouder of myself now.

   Starting this blog was a tough nut to crack. I had to overcome some obstacles before I was able to do so. The obstacles aren’t human created but “Me” created obstacles (smiles). They are procrastination, indiscipline, laziness, and lack of time management. I had to fight to overcome all these obstacles before I was able to succeed in creating my blog.

   I had always loved writing since I was a child. Writing has become part of me that I write down every single thing that happens to me in my diary or journal. I write both on my phone, laptop, and in a book. But starting up something like this (blog site) even though it was in mind, was difficult to start up.

It also took the challenge and support of a lovely friend and that of my brother to successfully create this blog site.

I am happy that I finally have a platform where I can voice out in a written form and people will read and hear me. Blogging isn’t an easy thing, but I hope to be consistent and to be able to satisfy you, my lovely friends. Hoping you will be my devout friends, in whom together, we will grow higher. Your engagements such as commenting and sharing my works will go a long way in growing this newbie.

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  I will be writing on:

Lifestyle

Relationship

Writing

Movies

Books.

 

Lifestyle: if you are looking to improve yourself, your life, you are in the right place. Because my blog will provide you with good tips on how to lead a good and nice life. Based on my experiences and those of my friends who want their stories to be heard as well. And also from other reliable sources. click here to start your life improvement

 

Relationship: Things that concern relationships, tips and stories from peoples experiences and other sources will be posted in this category to make you have a better relationship with anyone, both family, friends and intimate relationship. so read on to get more tips on how to improve a healthy relationship. if you love improvement click here

Writing: This category is for your leisure time. I will be posting more of my works: fiction, non-fiction and poems. I love writing and I love the imagination world. I write as the inspiration comes and I am very sure you will love all my stories. So, click here and get started already.

Movies: I had always wanted to be an actress growing up, (I still would love to act, if given the opportunity). I love watching movies, it is more than a hobby to me. It is also my source of happiness. Movie is like a generational something in my family, my grandma loves watching movies. my mother loves watching movies and my aunt needs a Grammy award for seeing movies. she ranks high in all of us including me.

I know there are people like me, who are out there looking for movie recommendations. so i will be posting recent, semi-recent and old movies, based on the ones I have seen and from other sources too. All works and NO play isn’t good for you so, click here and have fun.

Books: I am an Information scientist, even though I have inborn love for books, studying this course also increased the love for books. In this category, I will be posting books with their summaries that will be of great help to you. If you are looking to cultivate a reading culture or you want to boost your already existing one, this blog is definitely for you.

Do not waste more time. Click here and  begin your journey to building a good life.

 

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WHAT VALENTINE GIFT SHOULD I GIVE MY BOYFRIEND THIS YEAR

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“At what age did you receive your first valentine’s gift?

Well, mine, was at age 20. It wasn’t a gift from my boyfriend but from a random friend, I had just met few days before valentine’s day. That day I was running an errand for my mum when suddenly the guy stopped his car close to my pathway and shouted “Happy valentines’ day”. Stretching his hand towards me, he gave me some wraps of 5000 cash. That was the first day I had ever received a valentines’ gift from anyone.

Growing up I didn’t really love valentine’s day (no specific reason for that) but because of the movies I have been seeing, I now have the fantasy of how I want my valentine’s day to be.

   But it seems like nature doesn’t want me to have a fulfilled valentine yet. Because all the guys I have dated haven’t fulfilled my valentine’s gift fantasy.

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       What are those valentine gift fantasy? You may ask.

My valentine’s gift fantasy is a night before valentine’s day, we will be together in the same room. And once the clock ticks 12 am on valentine’s day morning, he will wake up and kiss my forehead and then give me lovely rose flowers, chocolates, a new set of designer shoes, handbags, and clothing and the final one would be him giving me his undivided attention for the whole day.

A whole day without a phone. Just the two of us, enjoying ourselves with movies, lovemaking, sleeping, and talking to each other.

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“I don’t know if this is a difficult fantasy, that none of them has ever thought to fulfill”.

Have you ever told them or given them a clue? You might ask again. Well, yes, I have given

my ex-boyfriend a clue. ‘Not to forget that I want those fantasy to be a surprise one’.

     On my own side, I have been the one gifting all the boyfriends that I have dated. That is why I am running out of ideas on what to gift him this year again.

   What valentine gift should I give my boyfriend this year?

As valentine’s day is drawing close, this question has been on my mind. I don’t like repeating gifts and that is why it is very difficult making a decision.

 I have three options which are:

1.  A Rolex wrist watch (his favorite, but I’m currently not financially stable to afford it).

2.  Redecoration of his office

3. Getting him another pair of Gucci shoes.

 With the above three options, I am obviously left with two, which is more confusing because I know he will be very happy to receive either one but will be happier if I can do the second option, but that too is quite expensive. I can only afford another Gucci shoe and that will mean ‘repetition of gifts. 

   If you were in my shoes, which of the above gift would you give him?

  I can only go for the one I can afford now; which is the Gucci shoe. I will go against my rule of not repeating gifts and probably not repeat it next year.

If you are also thinking of gifts to give to your girlfriend or boyfriend, you can comment down below and let me know what you are getting him/her this year.